So for whatever reason, I've avoided writing this one. Figured I would like to look back on it a year from now so here goes.
Last week I turned 40. I was convinced that it wasn't bothering me, and guffawed anytime someone asked if that number was a big deal in my world. Me? No way...it's only a number. You're as young as you feel. I brought out every one liner I could think of to convince everyone that turning 40 was no big deal. Funny coincidence though - as the date got closer I got crabbier. Found my fuse even shorter than usual, and my energy level was through the floor. Finally, the night before the big day, I let myself consider that maybe it was bothering me.
As I mulled it over, I admitted to myself that, for whatever reason, this number was bothering me. Still not sure really why, but that 4 at the beginning of my age wasn't sitting well. Almost in the same instant I felt pretty guilty...how many people don't get to hit that number happy and healthy? So I let myself be grumpy for one more evening, then shook myself out of it. I don't feel a day over 30 (well most days), and I have lots in my life to be grateful for. The day came and went (complete with a couple of amazing surprises and a *little* bit of vodka and 7up) and I got reminded about how truly blessed I am.
I have a husband who stands beside me when I need him (even through all the crazy), and holds me up when I need him to. I am eternally grateful that he chose me.
I have two children who are happy (unless they're moody) and healthy. They give me kisses everyday, and tell me how much they love me. Best feeling ever.
I have an amazing group of friends who understand me the way no one else could. They make me laugh until I'm doubled over, and always have an ear for the days when laughter is not on the agenda. And they all make 40 look amazing - love you ladies!
I have a family who has seen their share of ups and downs this year. Thankfully the ups outweighed the downs - that's all any of us can ask for. And I love each of them for who they are and what they bring to my life.
When I go over all the things I've accomplished in 40 years, I can't wait to see what the next 40 bring.